Ever feel like you just need to be angry. Sometimes I just want to be angry, I feel the urge to throw something out of rage but I can't find a reason why. I think it has something to do with feeling inconsequential. I get jealous when I hear people talk about their close relationships with people. I'm no one's lucky star, I'm no one's devestation. Ya know in those movies where they kidnap the person someone really cares about to get that person to do what they want. I'M NEVER GOING TO BE KIDNAPPED!!! haha that's one way to put it. The point is, no one really knows me. Well I guess there are people who know me but then at the same time they dont understand me. I met someone who I think could understand me very well. But as fate would have it, there's hardly a chance for them to get to know me. Thanks world... I always do my best to get to know someone. But these days everyone's so private cuz at this point everyone's experienced pain caused by betrayal. That's the pot calling the kettle black. I hate feeling like I'm prying but I always try to do what I wish others would do for me. Hoping the person will understand that I'll do unto others as I'd have them do unto me. But still we keep shutting each other out. It all comes down to trust. Who do we trust? How do we decide when to trust them? To what extent can trust be extended? I myself know that I'm very intuitive. Of course I don't read people like a book that's just silly to assume that. I'm good at getting vibes either in a general cool/not cool sense or in specific situations. It's a good guide but it's just that. Got a good feeling off this one person but that didn't make it happen. I'm craving trust right now. Trust that opens the door for my opportunity to be kidnapped... I need someone I can trust in the matter of understanding me who will trust me right back.

I know some of you are assuming relationship at this point...that's not it at all.